For Reals

Two weeks ago (I know you are saying why did it take you so long to post? but mommy has been super busy and super tired!) we got to have an ultrasound to see you! What an exciting day that was. As I layed there holding daddy's hand all I could think about was praying that there really was a little heart beat in there. And I couldn't be more proud. The tech explained everything to us as she did it and showed us all of your little parts and we got to watch your heartbeat. It was the greatest moment to know that our baby is safe and healthy. We still can't wait to meet you. Dad was hoping that there was 2 of you in there, but it's only you. And that is ok because we will for sure be giving you more brothers and sisters. I am so proud to be carrying you inside of me and can't wait for the bond that we will have.




AS far as how I have been feeling..... I had a few rough weeks when I was extremely nauseated, but I never barfed so that is a bonus. I just felt so blah and yucky that all I wanted to do was to lay on the couch and do nothing. Well,. I pretty much did that aside from having to go to school and work. i neglected the housework and the dishes. I am finally catching up though! I have been tired alot too. Mommy requires lots of sleep these days or she is not a happy camper. My boobs don't hurt very much anymore, but they are enormous. I guess I have to stop making fun of aunt Sadi!!!
I feel fat alot too. I feel like none of my clothes fit and all I want to do is wear sweat pants. But aunt Jessica and Angela brought me all of there maternity clothes so maybe I will start to get a little more comfortable. I complain to dad alot about feeling this way and he keeps reminding me that it is ok and that you are inside my belly and I have to take care of you!

I don't know if you can hear yet, but we talk to you alot. Daddy gets right down to your level and tells you about all of things he can't wait to do with you! We are starting to get anxious to know if you are a boy or a girl, but are willing to wait.

We love you baby!

Disappointed but so grateful....

Hi Baby~
I haven't had much energy to write to you this past week cause you are just taking it out of me. I am always and tire and that nausea I talked about? Well, I spoke to soon. It has come with full force, sometimes to the point that the only thing I can do to keep from losing my lunch is lay down and close my eyes. I cherish every moment of it though.
We went to the doctor today, hoping to get to see you and your little heartbeat.And I had tons of questions to ask the doctor. We got there and after filling out a few forms we waited some more to see the doctor. Meanwhile I was not feeling good at all and only had 2 hours of sleep I was hoping for this amazing experience when the doctor came in. He introduced himself and was kind. Told us a few things to avoid....like sushi!!!!!! I may go through withdrawls. And then he told us we would get to see you when you are 20 weeks old. 20 weeks? that is 13 weeks away! I can't wait that long and was pretty instantly disappointed. He did say we could hear your heartbeat next month, but I dont know what that really means. He then asked if we had any questions and I froze. My big long list stayed in my purse and we left. Besides being diappointed i think I just didn't have the experience I was looking for. So the question remains do I give him one more shot or try and find a new doctor or midwife.

I just need to brag about your daddy for a little bit. Today as he was driving us to the doctor I couldn't help but just stare at him. Baby, I want you to know how much I love your daddy. He is the greatest man I know. HE has made all of my dreams come true. I love waking up next to him and knowing that I get to spend forever with him. He sacrifices so much for our family. He is so smart and so kind. He really is everything in my life right now. I get so excited everyday when he leans down to you and talks to you. He is going to be such a great dad and I am grateful to have him.

Love you raspberry!!!