Disappointed but so grateful....

Hi Baby~
I haven't had much energy to write to you this past week cause you are just taking it out of me. I am always and tire and that nausea I talked about? Well, I spoke to soon. It has come with full force, sometimes to the point that the only thing I can do to keep from losing my lunch is lay down and close my eyes. I cherish every moment of it though.
We went to the doctor today, hoping to get to see you and your little heartbeat.And I had tons of questions to ask the doctor. We got there and after filling out a few forms we waited some more to see the doctor. Meanwhile I was not feeling good at all and only had 2 hours of sleep I was hoping for this amazing experience when the doctor came in. He introduced himself and was kind. Told us a few things to avoid....like sushi!!!!!! I may go through withdrawls. And then he told us we would get to see you when you are 20 weeks old. 20 weeks? that is 13 weeks away! I can't wait that long and was pretty instantly disappointed. He did say we could hear your heartbeat next month, but I dont know what that really means. He then asked if we had any questions and I froze. My big long list stayed in my purse and we left. Besides being diappointed i think I just didn't have the experience I was looking for. So the question remains do I give him one more shot or try and find a new doctor or midwife.

I just need to brag about your daddy for a little bit. Today as he was driving us to the doctor I couldn't help but just stare at him. Baby, I want you to know how much I love your daddy. He is the greatest man I know. HE has made all of my dreams come true. I love waking up next to him and knowing that I get to spend forever with him. He sacrifices so much for our family. He is so smart and so kind. He really is everything in my life right now. I get so excited everyday when he leans down to you and talks to you. He is going to be such a great dad and I am grateful to have him.

Love you raspberry!!!